I have written & re written, this blog over & over today, and have decided to just say that this is one of the most horrible days in my life.It of course involves the drama that has been going on, but seriously has me thinking of re locating out of state. I am not sure where, I haven't made it that far and I have to check into Jenn's scholarship programs, because I don't want to mess them up for her.
I have met, & reconnected with some really awesome people here on FB, and have appreciated all of your support, and especially since the stroke, I have needed a lot!!
My life has just took a terrible turn for the worse, and honestly, I am scared of the outcome, I do not know that I have the mental strength to get through it, the stroke has really taken a tole on me in that department, and I am hoping I have what it takes to get through this.
For today, functioning would be a great accomplishment, but, I am not sure I can do it!
As my daughter said, you have nothing better to do than FB in your pathetic little life.....Yep, my pathetic little life, when you do not own a car & have no money,your life becomes pathetic, wish I had more to contribute to life, more to offer, but, right now, taking care of myself has become a f/t job.
I apologize if my blogs offend anyone, they are just a lonely old ladies way of communicating with the world, a world which I wish I played more of a part in.
All, I really ever wanted in life was to be a mother, and I was a damn good one, regardless of anything else that is said, and I still am, my children are my life. But, for now, I will be focusing on Cody, Jenn, Daniel & Jess.
I was told I no longer have any grandchildren, well honestly, did I ever have them??? I haven't even so much as touched 9 mos old Maddox, and Jolie, haven't had contact in almost 2 years, that is the worst kind of mental torture imaginable, I can't tell you what it has done to me.
So, now I move on, w/o parents grandchildren, & 2 kids, you ask, is it you Kimmy, because they are all not speaking to you?? I have asked myself that 1 million times, and I certainly don't wear blinders where I am concerned, But, I haven't done ANYTHING to be kept from my grandchildren, I have allowed Megan & Scottie to use me as a door mat, and always afraid to say no to them so they "like" me, and my parents, well, how many times does it take to ask to be forgiven???